A New Beginning

It has been a while since my last post and I apologize.

My life is taking a different turn (don't worry, its for the better),

but for the last little while, my body has been freaking out on me.

who knows why....well ok, I know why BUT that's in the past now.

And because of some past events and what not, I now have a confession...

I have situational anxiety.

I have never struggled with something as hard as I have with this.

I've had a bone graft, a tooth implant,

I've had my wisdom teether removed,

I've had stitches but NOTHING...

I mean NOTHING

can compare to the pain of anxiety.

It feels like you're having a heart attack because of the chest pressure,

as well as many other things.

AND THEN, when you have anxiety,

you over analyze every pain that you may have in your body.

For example, in the past month I've thought I've had the following:

a kidney infection

breast cancer

a heart attack (like a mentioned earlier)

appendicitis

pneumonia

an ear infection

and the list could go on and on

now I may sound crazy but if you've suffered from any type of anxiety, you understand.

However, despite this difficult month, there have been

many tender mercies in my life that constantly

remind me that things are going to be alright.

In fact, life is fabulous & will continue to be so!

I've personally come to learn that the Atonement of Jesus Christ

isn't just for sins and your struggles, its also for your sicknesses and

its a great comfort to know that my Savior understands how I feel.

SO...starting today I am not going to let my anxiety get the best of me.

I've recently read a scripture that has renewed this faith in me.

Its in D&C 6:36 & it says,

"Look unto me in every thought; doubt not, fear not."

Therefore, I will not fear because whelp, I have nothing to fear.

I know that my Savior is aware of me & loves me more than I will ever know.

And because I know this, I know that I can get through anything.

Things will work out if I simply just put my faith in my Savior.